Dream.I had a dream last night that I was a zombie. I acted the same as usual except everything I did revolved around eating people. I remember going to my friend Warren's house, knocking on his window and asking him to let me in. Then I ate him. I ate a lot of my friends, in my dream. But they weren't screaming or resisting, really. It didn't hurt them or anything, they were like "Oh, YOU! I can't believe I let you eat my leg!". In my dream, everybody's body had a layer of cake on the outside and sweet beef jerky on the inside. No bones, for some reason. Despite the fact that I was eating my friends, it wasn't scary or sad at all. It was a fun dream.
Heard, art, and drawing.As everyone is well aware, I've been taking a break from drawing Heard. It's more than that, though. I haven't been drawing at all. I just feel completely uninspired. I have zero desire to draw. The idea of drawing for pleasure seems entirely alien to me lately, even though I know that it used to be about fun.
It's not so much that I'm sick of drawing Heard specifically. I don't want to start a new project or anything. I just don't want to draw.
Lately, I just enjoy being a normal person. A person who doesn't have to think about my hits, readership levels, merchandise ideas, advertising slots, etc.. At the same time, I know I enjoyed doing comics at some point. I know I'll enjoy it again-- I'm just burnt out. I've had a lot of wonderful experiences from being a comic artist-- meeting readers at conventions and in the streets. I'm disconnected from that part of me that enjoyed it, but I know that it's still there.
I think my disinterest in drawing has very little to do with drawing. It's mostly the stress I'm dealing with trying to find a good job, trying to reach my short-term goals.
Future job?I'm talking to some different places right now, if it continues to go well, I may have a job offer soon. But I still have to negotiate some things, blah blah blah, I don't have anything concrete yet. If I can seal a deal for a job, it'll take a lot of pressure off. Not to mention that job-hunting takes so many hours a week it's practically a job in itself. :/
Although I'd originally intended to return to Japan, I've changed my plans. It's now more likely that I'll move to South Korea instead. I can't talk about any details, but I'll let you guys know if I sign a contract.
Current job. Good and bad news.Also, more bad news for the comic! I'll be working full-time starting in a week. Probably. My job was supposed to be a part-time job, but one of the full-time nurses quit suddenly, so I'm going full-time to handle all of the paperwork so that the rest of the (short-staffed) nurses can get the nursely work done. We've already found a replacement full-time nurse, but it'll be a month before she can start with us, so, I'm looking at 3 weeks to a month of full-time work. After we get that nurse working and trained, I'll go back to part-time.. probably.
The arms.I really need the money so I'm glad that I'll be going full-time at work, but it's a bad break for my arms. I'm in so much pain lately. Having a data-entry job isn't helping the wrist pain. I'm wearing wrist-braces almost 24/7 now (including when I'm asleep and at work) and it's helping a lot with the pain, but the moment I take them off, the pain returns. Drawing with the brace on is uncomfortable, but hey.. I drew the last 5 pages or so with the brace, so, I guess I can continue. I have emergency medical insurance, so I can't afford to see a doctor for my wrists. I don't know how much damage I'm doing to myself by continuing to do wrist-intensive activities, but, I can't afford to do anything about it. :/ I need to save up money.
So.. yeah. That was a long post. I've been feeling really rant-y lately. I'm gonna start drawing now. I need to get built in ice-packs with my wrist braces, or something.